Oh boy, I've fucked up and let 4 words lapse. Damn, now I have to do them all at the same time. Why do I feel so badly about missing something that I'm only responsible to myself for?
I guess it's because it's a goal I set for myself, but it is still a goal. I have failed to meet that goal in a satisfactory way. I'm therefore disappointed in myself both in the involvement and the mandate senses.
I've just been really stressed out about work and not making a lot of money to finance all the dumb bullshit I do. So I go out and do a bunch of dumb bullshit for a weekend and get deeper into debt and further exacerbate my situation. It's a self-destructive way to take your mind off of something. Still, it did the trick.
But now I have to figure out how to have some fun without spending money. I think I'll be back in a hibernation sort of mode again. I miss my evenings in playing video games and working on new musical stuff. I should record some more songs. I should beat Saints Row sometime. I should take down all the rest of the mob families in the Godfather game. I would do more art, but after spending a bunch of time illustrating in the office after hours, I don't really want to.
I can fill this money-spending void. Most easily by staying on top of my blog.
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